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Well [27 Sep 2005|10:28am]
Bahkan pada saat gw ngetik postingan ini, gw ga tau gimana sebenernya perasaan gw.
Marah? Kesel? Sebel? atau malah musti seneng dan bangga?

My Boy friend is such everybody's best friend. Male and female.
I'm fine with that of course, coz yes.. he's nice. Thats the main reason why I fell for him at the first time.

But things are getting more complex lately.
Since we are going out, I meet lots of his friends. Most of them are my friends also, and I really enjoy that.
But somehow, I couldn't stop but noticing, that sumptimes they treat me as 'his GF' and not as 'Vanya'.
Well ok thats fine, because if I'm not dating him, maybe I wouldn't get along with them as close as this.
But thats sucks..
I mean..
I don't want to be rude, but yes I was mad once.
I wasn't mad at him, neither was at his friends.
But I was mad to myself.... I hate the way they put 'label' on me.

Like last saturday. I received a txt from one of our friend. My BF got it also. But I received it first. And I was like.. me? got a msg like this? I mean, I wasn't belong to his group [if I may say the word group. Coz I couldn't find any suitable one] But somehow I was glad to receive such a msg.
But will she send me the txt if I am not his GF? I doubt it.
Please please please if u read this, don't get me wrong. I really like the msg. That was the very nice of you.

But yes I was shocked when she emailed me this morning. Not the email that surprised me. The flow was fine until she wrote,
Please don't be angry if I call your BF at midnight. But I try to slow it down when I know you two are going out"
And I was like..
Oh C'mon.... He has his own life..
I have mine..
I don't have the rights (and I don't want, either) to change the way he lives his life.

His friends doesn't always have to be mine too. Especially if they don't want to.

Once again.. pleaseeeeeeeee
If you guys read this... don't get me wrong...

And as for you...
I love you..
and I'm so lucky to have you.. :*
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[22 Mar 2005|11:09am]
Sampe umur berapa sih biasanya anak itu berantem sama mamanya? Harusnya kayaknya umur gw udah lewat deh!!!!
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[26 Jan 2005|05:44pm]
[ mood | good ]

Tadi doneeh msg gw dan mau liat pas gw lagi pasang webcam.
oh ya liat deh ini gambar pas gw webcaman tadi klik
kalo kata K Vanda nilainya sembilan setengah!! *flattered* hehehhehehe

Donny msg gw dan akhirnya bilang dia jadi merit bulan MARET!!!! dan dengan entengnya minta gw jadi pager ayu, dengan alesan pengen liat gw pake kebaya!!! DAMN!! hehehehehhe but I've told him I'm happy for them. Percaya ato ngga abis ngomong gitu kayaknya perasaan gw JAUH lebih enteng

trus lala cerita kalo yogi (adenya donny) cerita kalo nyokapnya nyuruh Yogi nikah juga barengan sama donny. Dan pas dia bilang dia ga ada cw malah mamanya ngomong "ama vanya aja... vanya baik kan..." wew.... dodol!!!!

RIZA ANEH!!! liat webcam gw malah masturbate!! padahal dulu waktu pacaran nyium aja ga berani!! ugh k Vanda jadi marah" :((


*postingannya oendek kan? ;;)

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D'uh.... same old brand new me [25 Jan 2005|11:26pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

yahh....
gimana ya mulai ceritanyaaaa
hahahaha too many things to write down
and since gw udah lama banget ga ngeblog jadi bingung mau mulai dari mana.
and neway gw tau gw tuh jarang posting.. jadi jarang ada org yg baca ni LJ jadi gimana ya... dbeda rasanya....
dulu gw ngisi blog dengan sudut pandang bahwa blog gw akan dibaca oleh orang lain. walaupun bukan itu esensi utama dari ngeblog ya ga sih.. karna toh gw bukan menulis untuk org lain..

ah gw mulai ngelantur ga jelas deh.. mulai berpanjang" lagi kalo posting.... padahal barusan didi ngomong gini

VaNYa: semua ingetnya gw kalo posting slalu panjang
didi: bener
didi: lo termasuk orang yang direview dengan kelakuan aneh kalo ngeblog
VaNYa: sama sapa?
didi: yaitu postingan panjang dan membuat orang malas bacanya
didi: hahahahahaha
VaNYa: direview ama sapa?
didi: alfa si pasti itu tapi gue juga sih
VaNYa: direview maksudnya diomongin di cenel?
didi: gak, tapi ditulis
VaNYa: ditulis di cenel?
didi: ditulis diweblog


tapi emang banyak sih yg males baca blog gw terutama anak cowo (kecuali fatih dan bonnie) kecuali postingan gw ada hubungannya sama dia *bener kan BABE?* :P

Hmmmm berita paling baru gw udah berenti kerja. Karena tidak lulus probation. Karena cafenya mau dijual. Karena tidak laku. Gw ngerasa ditipu. Dulu waktu diterima kerja gw dijanjiin kita akan berjuang sama" ngidupin cafenya bersama sama. tapi ternyata boss gw menyerah. Ya mau diapain lagi sih.. duitnya dia juga sih yg dipertaruhkan. Cuma nasib gw kan terlunta lunta jadi pengangguran...
Dahlah males ngebahasnya...

Tanggal 19 Desember yang lalu... gw dapet sms dari nomer tak dikenal malam ddku yg manis.. udah bobo ya? dan gw ga kenal nomernya :D tapi karna gw kreatif, gw jadi mulai berpikir siapa yg manggil gw dd.. cuma k berly, k dino dan k vanda. dan yang manggil dengan nama ddku yg manis itu cuma k vanda. jadi dengan still pede gw tanggepin smsnya walo ga nyebut nama (cuma menggunakan kata kk dan aku) :P eh lama lama ketawan juga kalo dia k Vanda :D pinter ya gw :D Trus gw smsan deh sampe pagi :D
Sejak saat itu jadi suka sms dan telpon"an sama dia. Sempet ketemuan juga pas dia ke Jakarta taon baru kemaren. Trus ya gitu deh.. smsan.. telpon"an... gw mulai bingung lagi... jadi sayang... apakah suka? ga tau juga... gw musti define lagi perasaan gw. Is it worth to try to look for another person? Is this the right time? Kalo nanya Kodja pasti dia akan langsung teriak "YA IYA!!! KAN UDAH GW BILANG EBRAPA KALI LOE HARUS NYARI ORANG LAIN SELAIN JOSH DAN DONNY!!!" Tapi apakah ini saat yg tepat? waktu kemaren cerita sama Aee dia malah bilang "loe nih kebiasaan!! Gebtena melulu ga jelas!!" tapi pas tau agamanya sama dia malah bilang "kalo gitu gw dukung nyanya..." *doenkz!!!*

Nah nah.. gwnya jadi sok pede gini.. padahal jelas" k Vandanya sendiri belom take a step closer.. but still kepikiran. Lucky for me dia juga lagi ga mau jalan sama orang lain dulu... but thats not the point.. sampe kapan ya begini terus?

Hmm.. latest news from Donny, he's getting married with that girl. Udah ada banyak banget orang yg laporan kw gw. Gw sempet shock sih.. Its not that I'm still hoping him or stuff... tapi shock aja... He used to say that He doesn't want to get married that soon.. though I know his mom always want to have a grandchildren. Gw sempet mikir.. kalo gw masih jalan sama dia.. gw kawin ga ya? D'oh.... pusing... Aee said that I'm obsessed with him.. maybe yes.. coz.. I mean.. He's not that good rite? Well OK He's good enuff to make my heart melt.. but he's not the kind of man (or boy?) that worth my total attention, knowing the fact that he's no longer with me? damn.. bingung deh gw...

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[25 Dec 2004|03:40pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Merry Xmas everyone!!! :D

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[11 Oct 2004|05:57am]
[ mood | good ]

Well.. well....
mungkin banyak yang bingung kenapa juga postingan gw yang terakhir gantung. itu soalnya emang gw ga bisa lama-lama sodara-sodara...
Jadi waktu itu gw lagi posting di kampus, tapi pas lagi di tengah" posting dan cerita tau" kata mbak" perpusnya ad aorang audit mau inspeksi jadi disuruh keluar dulu 15 menit. kadung juga, jadi akhirnya gw balik aja...

Hmmm... what's new...
Oh ya... I finally got a job :D
About 2 months ago I saw the add on Kompas about a company that looked for a Indonesian teacher. I thought it was a teacher for expatriate or what, so I applied. Surprisingly two days after I sent the applications I was called bye the company and asked me to do the interview. I was surprised because I didn't expect them to call me that soon... if you understand what I am talking.
So I went there, and when the HRD manager interviewed me she said that she wanted to offer another job. She asked me whether I've heard about autistic children. I said I've heard but I don't know too much. She offered me the job to be the private teacher of an autistic children. I said I have to think about it, and I also stated the fact that I have no experience in teaching autistic child. She said it's OK I can take the psychologic test first. So I did the test. Actually I wasn't very interested about the job, because I understand that autistic child needs extra attention and I can't promise her I can give. I'm not saying that I wont give my attention, but let's think about the worst. Not to mention the very long working hour. She expected me to work form 9am-9pm... phewww

So I said maybe I have to meet the child and the parents first. She said she would call me and arrange a meeting. When I finally came home I was sure that I don't want to take the job. But few weeks later, Josh went to Surabaya and Bali and unfortunatelly he took my charger. So for about 4 days my cell wasn't active. When I finally can turn my cell on I found about 5 txt messages from the HRD manager I met and 3 voice msgs from the parents of the child who is the HRD manager's boss' wife. But of course I didn't know who was the person that left a voice msg on my cell so I called the number. Then, oohh I'm getting onfused with all the position. So let's use initial. The HRD manager's is H and the mothe rof the child who called me is R. When I called Mrs. R she told me a bit about her children. So she has 3 children and the 1ts one is OK. The 2nd is a girl who suffers from ADHD, and her 3rd son is autistic. She gave me the brief story about them and she asked me to do an interview the day after. I agreed. Trutfully at that time I still want to refuse the job, but I think it will be better and polite if I refuse it after I hear the story. And there was I, the day after the call, I came to their house. Mr. K, her husband is the person who want to talk to me. So the two of them interviewed me. At first Mr. K read my CV and he asked whether he can use English or not. I s aid yes so he started to talked in English. At first he only asked about my background, and before I can tell them about my refution, he already asked me, whether I REALLY want this job or not. That was my opportunities!! So I told them about my point of concern, and how I was afraid I couldn;t do that because I understand perfectly that it will be so hard for the children if I quit after let's say 3 months. And I told them also that of course I can still work to them eventhough the children doesn't like me or stuff, because at this time I really need a job. But they will just waste their money for nothing!! I said that eventhough I really need a job, I don't want to take any job without think about the onsequencies. Well maybe I would take any job, but not this one (if I still have doubt) because I like children and I'm very concern about their happiness.
I didn't know whether it was a good answer or not but I knew that I was very sure about that. But surprisingly they liked my answer. So they offered me this. I can be the shadow teacher for their 2nd daughter -shadow teacher is the teacher that observe the child at school and then make a lesson plan for the home schooling- and after that I can work on his club. He has a club that he wants to re-launched, and he likes my qualifications. So he offered me to be the project member. Geezzz.... I never expect that!! That was so great..... And he understood about the working hour problem, so my schedule is Mon-Fri I was the shadow teacher from 8.30-3.00, and after that I go to the club untill 6. (Fortunatelly the location is not very far and his driver will take me there.) On Sat and Sun I worked from 12-11pm and my free day is Wednesday. I know it's still a very long working hour, but he offered me a very good compentation :D

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Phewwww [23 Sep 2004|02:37pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I am in campus rite now. I just submitted the for copies of my thesis. But I have to wait becoz the academic girl is having a meeting with ... I don't know who :D
And here I am... waiting and waiting. I cant use my cell because I can recharfe the battery. Josh brought my cell to Surabaya last week because his cell was off and he had no time to charge it. But, the problem is he didn't left his charger. Silly him. So I have to borrow the charger from one person to another.... sheezzzz

Have I told u that I broke my glasses? It's been 2 weeks but I haven't fixed it yet. It was broke becoz it fell down from the table. and at that day I have to go shopping. Yeaah I'm trying to make some more money by selling clothes. I sent it to people outside Jakarta, and yeah it has a good prospect :D Hope I can have my own brand by next year :D
Ok... back to the topic. I have to shop that day. And I was in a very bad mood because of the broken glasses thingie. I went by train, and there was a very weird thing happened.

There was a lady who (lemme tell u this in Bahasa coz ga seru kalo ga ntar ga seru lage :P)
Jadi ada ibu" setengah tua nabrak gw. ibu" itu kurus banget dan dia nabrak samoe gw ampir jatoh, jadi bisa dibayangin kan betapa kerasnya. Dan waktu gw ngomong dengan refles "Astaga Bu" dia balik ngadep gw sambil ngomong "Ihhhh orang saya mau nyari suami saya yeeeee" sambil ngegandeng tangan suaminya yg emang ada sekitar 3 meter di depan gw. Ya udah gw diemin. Tau" dia balik lagi sambil ngomel" ga jelas.

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Hwaaaaaaaaa [22 Sep 2004|04:02pm]
Hwaaa I should have submitted 4 copies of my thesis on Sep 17, but silly me, I thought it was Sept 24!!!
Fortunately I called campus today, and the academic girl told me to submit it today.
But I told her that I can't becoz I haven't made the copies. and Thx GID she sid yes...

SO I ran to the nearest photo copy center to copy it :D Its done already :D
I;m still looking for a job ryt now. ACtually I still work as a private teacher, and currently I;m having 6 students, and one of my students sent me msg yesterday and asked me if I can share my time for one more students. GOD I was surprised because this Franky person (my student) is the least person that I thought will tell his friends that he's having a lesson with private teacher :D Coz he's male and on the last year on high school... you know...
And his friend called me last night, and she said she would tell her mom about me.. well... let's see :D

Speaking of students, generally I love all my students. I mean, alomost all. I have this students. Her name is Sisca. She is the lil sister of my high school friend. firstly, when my friend asked me to teach her sister, I said no because I knoew what kind of person she is. SHe's a nightmare of every teacher!!! But her mom called me again and again and finally I accept it.
I have only taught her for less than a month but she already cancelled it twice without telling me. so when I came to her house sh wasn't there... yea riteeeee
and just yesterday I came and she was sleeping and the worst part was she refused to wake up. So I left her house without sayiing a word. I plan to wuit after this one month...

And I'm still wanting a job that fit my wualification. I know I am fresh graduate and have minimum experiences... but puh leaseeeeeeee 750thousssand all in? gimme a breaaaaaaaaakkkk
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yea yeaaa [17 Sep 2004|04:01pm]
I finally graduated on August 24.
and right now I am jobless....
ga jobless jobless banget sih soalnya gw masih [punya 6 muyrid.
Tapi expenses kok makin bulan makin banyak yaaaaaaaaaaaa
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Yeah Yeah.... [12 Jul 2004|02:19pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Well... I'm so bored...
I'm stucking here at the ambasador mall and can't do anything coz it's raining very hard outside.
Gw baru balik ngajar dan karena keujanan jadi gw mampir di sini.
tadi sempet ketemu sama oom gw dan dia kayaknya ga kaget ngeliat gw. Dia cuma nanya "ngapain?" sambil megang pala gw. Well.. its kinda weird soalnya oom gw yg itu ga biasa beramah" sama sodara"nya hehehehhe
I mean.... pegang" pala itu sama sekali bukan gayanya dia :D

Trus... neway domain gw di unbelievayble.com mati soalnya keupaan bayar. Maybe nxt month baru bisa gw bayar heheheheh

Yayayaya gw tau kalo kesannya ga tau terima kasih banget baru post di sini setelah blog gw mati, tapi sbnrnya sih ga gitu jugas oalnya gw emang ga pernah posting lagi di blog sinmce gw mulai ngerjain thesis.
yang sayangnya masih belom kelar juga *phew*
Yah... doain aja deh yaaaaa

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[07 Mar 2004|09:46pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I dont know...
Is it allowed to pray for something we really want, [and its legal] but its kind of inappropriate?

I mean In my real life, I wont do that.. though rite now I really want that to be happened.

can I pray for that?

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[29 Feb 2004|05:59pm]
[ mood | creative ]

well....
I am allowed to start preparing my thesis now...
wish me luck guys...
Can't wait to get rid of this skewl :P

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[11 Feb 2004|12:21pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Its been like forever since the last time I update this journal...
but its not my fault.... I can't open this page when I get OL on campus, and I rarely OL anywhere else...
so....
hows life treating you guys?
mine was fine, though I can say this not the best era of my life *LoLZ*
neway... my baby is sick now...
I have to see her soon....
get well soon baby... I love you ::D

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[27 Dec 2003|09:05pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I had a blue Xmas without u...
I was so blue.. just thinkin' 'bout you...
Decoration of red.. on a green Xmas tree..
Didn't mean a thing dear... coz u weren't there with me...


Well...
I hate when I got blue...
I've been praying for few months that if only Josh is not the one... let him away from my life..
But I don't know is it the sign from God...
Why do we have to fight on Xmas eve?
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[21 Dec 2003|12:24pm]
[ mood | angry ]

I lost my cell phone on Wednesday Night and it was sucks!!
And what makes it even worse that My mom got so mad of me bout that. I mean, it seems that its not enuff that I had lost it. I mean, I don't want to lose it either!! Why did she has to make the impression that I did that on purpose? heck...
I bought it by my own money!! And she knows how much I love my cell phone, especially since she told us not to use the house's phone after 10pm vryday!!
But then I guess that's becoz she loves me so...

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Friendster.cOm [14 Dec 2003|06:14pm]
it seems that everyone I know already join the friendster.com :D
I guess I'm the latest one :p
I've heard 'bout this site before, but I haven't had enuff time to register, till one day L ask me to join. She's the one who told me bout the steps and that's why I'm insist to upload a new picture :D
Well.... so guys... please add meH..... vanyasunanto@yahoo.com kay.... :P
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[11 Dec 2003|09:48pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

kemaren gw foto"ake N3650nya pacarnya kk gw
tapi ntah kenapa ga bisa diaplot
kan sebenernya kompie gw ada slot buat masukin memory card N3650
tapi kok anehnya ga bisa kebaca yaa
ah sebel
pdhal gw dah foto banyaaaaak bange
skaligus foto pohon natal gw :((

neway...
khusu buat aee kayaknya kecurigaan loe bener bener dan bener deh...
huhuhuhuhu gw grogi gini salah typed dr tadi :D

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X`Mas Spirit!! [08 Dec 2003|07:20pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]

My mom is getting crazy I guess... :P
She woke me up at 6 in the morning, and ask me to swept the house!!
She said that it's almost Xmas for God's Sake and why don't I have at least a little attention to the house...

So all of the family were working together and tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa my house is so damn neat :D
I also decorated the xmas tree :)
I'll show u the picture later guys :)

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[29 Nov 2003|06:58pm]
LUPAIN DIA LUPAIN DIA LUPAIN DIA LUPAIN DIA!!!!!!!!!!
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[27 Nov 2003|11:36pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

Ya Tuhan... terima kasih semuanya baik" aja...
Gw lega banget ga ada hal" buruk yang terjadi.
Terima kasih.. karna walau ga dapet yg gw mau, gw ga kehilangan apa" yang gw sayang saat ini....

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